Morning Circle

I was recording a song tonight and my little dogs were playing in my room.  So, I recorded them too.  You can hear their collars shaking and one of them lets out a little bark.  It’s cute.

People are weird.  Scary.  It’s very weird to me what we are capable of.  Maybe not weird.  It’s scary to me.  I don’t think we understand each other and I don’t think we understand life.  I know we don’t.  I think the lack of understanding creates a disregard for people’s life.  This doesn’t pertain to all people, obviously.  But, to think that it even pertains to 1 if not 100 people is very scary.  I think it’s remarkable that not being able to understand will create disregard.  I don’t know how that’s possible.  But it is.  And I think it is proven so on a daily basis.

It might be nice to take your family, your close friends, and just move to a remote island.  A secluded little place.  And just not worry about the world.  Not worry about those that choose to ignore the beauty of the world.  Why create clouds when it’s sunny?

I love Calvin and Hobbes.  I’m not a big reader, although I wish I was.  While Calvin and Hobbes is not a book, I could read them all the time.  If you would pay me to read them I would quit this job I have and work for you.  It’s funny, smart, and moving.  I find it to be unlike any other comic I’ve read in my life.  I almost don’t even consider it a comic.  I don’t know what else I would call it, but I would call it something else.

It’s hard when you can’t feel as sad about something as you think you should.  When someone you kind of know, or know through someone else, passes away you feel that sadness.  But, it’s not a long-term sadness.  It kind of hits you and then goes away.  You can even feel sad for those who are truly affected by it but you can’t seem to be truly sad about it.  It makes me feel like I’m not doing my job as a human.  I think, “Am I a robot?”  But, then I bleed and know that I am not.  Sometimes it feels like I’m saying, “I understand what you’re going through is difficult and I’m sorry for your loss.  Let me know if I can do anything to help.  But, also know that as soon as I leave here I’m going to go back to my normal life and forget about this and not be sad for the rest of the day.”  I mean, obviously that’s not exactly how it happens and I’m exaggerating, but it sucks.

I heard a joke today that was pretty clever.

Green Tea with Citrus is really good.  How good you may ask?  This good.

I want it to be warm.  Again.

Things In The World

Are so crazy.  I, along with everyone else, read things that happen that are just so crazy.  I truly don’t understand some of the things that happen in this world.  There are good things.  Such good things.  People helping people, helping those less fortunate and those who have endured natural disasters that have rocked their way of living.  It’s so great to see that.  But, then there are these just terrible acts committed by humans that really bring things down.  It’s so common to hear, “Focus on the good.”  But, if that’s true then why are the bad things all we ever hear about?  Yes the relief effort in Haiti is fantastic and all over the news and that is so great.  But, why can’t things of that nature that happen daily on a smaller scale be talked about as well?  Not only talked about as well, but often.  I hope no one gets jaded by the news thinking this world only has awful things that exist within it.  There are bad things, but there are good things.  I honestly don’t know which outweighs the other.  You can make your own decision about that.  Nothing in the world is a fairy tale, that’s certain.  But there are characters that would exist in a fairy tale that are around.  There are villains, too.  Don’t be a villain.

Are you comfortable in your own skin?  Such an interesting question.  Are you?  Is your skin comfortable?  Would you wear it as a jacket if you were cold?  If you had a choice, that is.  But, we don’t.

It’s nice to realize things about yourself.  The good, the bad.  It’s nice to realize these and improve the bad and boast the good.  I don’t understand people who say, “Yeah, I’m a bitch but at least I know it.”  What are you talking about?  Yes, you are.  I’m glad you realize it.  Now, how about you stop being one?  If you realize that you’re a jerk then why don’t you work on cutting it out?  These things don’t happen over night, sure we understand.  I do.  It’s hard to understand and it’s hard to realize and accept it, though.  But, stop using that as an excuse for the way you are.  “I kill people but hey at least I realize it.”  Oh, well then by all means continue killing people because hey everyone, they realize it.  They know they’re doing it.  It is validated.

Everything In It’s Right Place.  Scary to think if it was.  What if you found out one day that everything in fact was in its right place.  Would you be sad?  Or would you think that it felt like it so it’s good to have that confirmation that you were right.  Your life has gone the absolute right way.  There is nothing that has happened that was out-of-place.  Odd.  Good song, though.  Crazy good live, too.

What if you were given a family name that was awful.  They gave you this name as a child, they told you when you were old enough to understand that it has been in the family for generations and all the history that comes with that.  All this historic, prestigious allure that comes with this name and those who had it before you and all the accomplishments they had in their fantastic life.  Sounds great right?  Sounds absolutely beautiful and it’s such a compliment that you would be given this name right?  What if the name was Schmermy.  That’s just the first name, though.  What if the middle name was Herfestry.  And then to top it all of your last name just so happens to be Plop.  Schmermy Herfestry Plop.  That is your name.  Good God.  You can legally change your name when you’re 18?  I think.  Maybe it’s 16.  I really can’t remember.  But, what do you do in that situation?  This historic prestigious name to be bestowed upon you.  Your parents are just so proud that they have conceived a child that is great enough to bear this name.  Would you change it and infuriate your entire family?  Not even just your immediate family.  You would probably piss off all the family that you are aware of.  That’d be a tough choice.  I’m glad I’ve never had to make that choice.  To the Schmermy Herfestry Plop’s of the world, good luck and I’m sorry that you have to make this decision in your life.

Goodnight.

Fuck Dishonesty

Because it’s so true.  If you say to someone, “Man…I’m just sick of it!  Fuck dishonesty!” If they’re response is anything but, “Dude totally!  Fuck it!”  Then you need to eliminate them.  We can’t have people running around this world, existing, who support dishonesty.  That is just…well…it’s…hmm…it’s definitely something and it’s not good.  And if people give you grief about eliminating them, then you eliminate that person too because obviously they support dishonesty too.

Here’s what’s going to happen right now.  My iTunes is on random so whenever the song changes I’m going to blurt out…well…the type equivalent to a vocal blurt…what song it is!  Right now, American Music by the Violent Femmes.  Have you ever just been feeling fine, healthy all day, then you randomly swallow and you feel a slight pain in your throat and then you start getting worried that you could possibly be getting sick and because you think about it too much you might convince yourself that you are sick and then your head hurts and your throat continues to hurt and  you’ve basically convinced your body that it needs to shut down because your sick? 3 Times And You Lose by Travis.  That kind of happened to me tonight when I was at work before I got to go home and do work from there.  So, I’m trying not to think about it but now since I’ve typed this out I began thinking about it again.  So, maybe I shouldn’t have typed it out.  But, no looking back now.  It is done.

What if wind was a physical presence?  I don’t think we would be able to move around.  I also think everyone in the world would be perpetually frustrated and contained.  But, at the same time I would think if wind WAS a physical being then I’m sure it would be really light so it would be easy to move.  Still, having to move things all the time?  Man, I’d be so mad.  I don’t think I’d go anywhere.  I bet the government would design something to eliminate wind.  While that would suck, I think I’d be for it.  But, maybe they’d leave certain locations untouched and they would still be susceptible to wind.  You could go vacation there.  It would be called something like, “Windy Springs (For Real).” In The Waiting Line by Zero Seven.  And people would vacation there, I think I would vacation there.  But, it seems like something you would only do once because ya know, it would suck.  It’s like if you went to vacation at a college doing tests and exams and presentations after you’ve already graduated.  Nobody does that.  So, that is why “Windy Springs (For Real)” would go bankrupt quite instantly.  So, my advice is to not invest, do not buy stock for Windy Springs (For Real).  Because I can almost guarantee you that it will never make money.  EVER.  IT WON’T HAPPEN.  So, save your money and go buy a slushie.  Because slushie’s are awesome.  Bouncing Round The Room by Phish.

I have recently discovered that I enjoy scotch and water’s.  They are good.  Upon this discovery it occurred to me that this drink has finally made me a man.  I mean, let’s not kid ourselves, moving boulders and eating grenades has made me plenty man already.  But, I just needed that extra push.  Well, I found it.  I have tried a plethora (good word) of different liquids to make myself more man.  I drank oil, liquid possums, and I even tried to drink wood.  All of which hurt and resulted in me going to the hospital.  They are incredibly bad for you.  Please, do not drink any of the aforementioned liquids.  Take my word for it.  It. Sucks.  But, I was like, “Well, I don’t know what else to do.”  At that moment I saw a bottle labled, “Scotch.”  I thought to myself, “Hmm, I’ve tried scotch on the rocks and it was like tearing my ear drums out. “  So, naturally I didn’t think I’d like it.  At that same moment I was thirsty.  Dehydrated.  You Are My Face by Wilco.  So, I wanted a water.  But, I also wanted alcohol.  That’s right.  I created the drink, scotch and water.  So, feel free to tell people you know.  It’s pretty good.  I drank it and instantly grew a beard and have a stupid hairy chest.  It was that fast.  I became the manliest of mans.  Check it in the history books.  It’s there.

This getting way too long and ridiculous so I’m going to end it right about now.

OR AM I!?!?!

Yes.

Music

I love music.  To death.  I love music to death.

I love that song that you hear with your eyes closed and you forget where you are.  The song doesn’t necessarily need lyrics or any intricacies at all.  It can be a simple melody on a piano, guitar, drums, bass, strings, tuba, it really doesn’t matter.  There is a song that you hear and when you hear it you feel it.  You can feel it make your eyes shut, your mouth smile, and your head goes to a different place.  For that moment, for however long that song is, you are gone.  Every care you have is replaced with the thought provoking sounds that swirl your head and make you love this world and love the people in your life.  It’s amazing to me how music can do this.

So, now you probably know that I’m listening to music.  I will tell you that I am listening to a playlist I created while in college titled Sleeping Music.  As the title suggests…it’s to help me sleep because I suck at sleeping.  I have sucked at sleeping ever since I was a child.  It contains 5 songs and the total time length of the playlist is roughly 30 minutes.   The tracklist is:

1. Fyrsta ferð – Sigur Ros.  This song is off the movie soundtrack they did for Hlemmur.  It’s an Icelandic documentary (I do believe) about one man’s struggle with alcoholism.  I have never seen the movie, only clips on youtube.  This song is so beautiful.  If you have the time and desire, find it, listen to it.

2. The Wider Sun – Jon Hopkins.  This song is off his album Insides.  Fantastic album and this is the opening track.  All violins.  But, don’t let this track fool you into what the album sounds like.  It is an electronic album.  But, it’s awesome.  I call his music Melodic Electronic.  I’m not trying to be hip or catchy, that’s just what it truly sounds like to me.

3. Happiness – Jonsi and Alex.  This song is off their album Riceboy Sleeps.  Which is a powerhouse of beauty.  This is the first track of the album and it really sets the tone for the rest of it.  Happiness is such a fitting title for this song as it does just that.  Makes you happy.

4. Stokkseyri – Jonsi and Alex.  They only have one album out so you guessed it, this is off Riceboy Sleeps too.  Beautiful flowing piano riff in this song.  I don’t know much else to say about this one.  It’s great.

5. Indian Summer – Jonsi and Alex.  This is the final song on the playlist and it’s my favorite off the album.  This song is basically in two parts.  The first sounds like a piano being played under water.  Very reverberated (did I just verb reverberate?) song.  Such a simple first half and so powerful.  Truly amazing.  But, the second half of this song?  Wow, forget about it.  Don’t even try to wrap your head around it.  Unbelievable.  So gorgeous.  It’s all violins with Jonsi’s beautiful and elegant voice swirling with the violins.  This song is my song that I fly away to.  This is the song for me that I talked about in the beginning.  I can close my eyes and listen to the last half of this song and truly believe I’m somewhere else.  No drugs either!  Wherever I want to go, I can close my eyes and play this song and float there.  I think about so much.  Maybe too much.  My head thinks it might explode and so do my eyes.  It’s a fascinating feeling.  Oh, and the song ends with Jonsi holding one note for a good 20 seconds.

I don’t know if you’ll read this.  Anyone.  But, if anyone does, I strongly suggest checking out the songs I just listed.  If you are only going to choose 1, though, (jerk) then I would suggest track 5.  But, keep in mind this is a sleeping playlist so don’t expect to be rockin out with these songs.  If you want to have your emotions pulled at and do a lot of thinking about things?  Yeah, check out Indian Summer.  Do not operate any heavy machinery, though.  Bad news.

Ever have big ideas that you know you can do and you want to do and you think that you will do them only to have that strong feeling of productivity go away within the next hour?  It’s a bad feeling because you know the feeling.  The idea comes and you fall for it every time.  You think, “This!  This again!  Yes!  I love that idea!  This will happen.  Today is the day.  I feel like I can do this today.”  *an hour later* “I’m doing something else…”  Yeah, it just…I mean it happens so frequently.  Too frequently.  I’m not lazy.  I just get so excited for something that I know will let me down because I won’t do it.  Sucks.  Like writing a book.  I want to write a book.  I’m not sure what about.  But, something.  Well, it has to be something right?  You couldn’t write a book and then when people buy it the pages are empty and they say, “What is this?” and you say, “Oh, it’s the book I wrote.”  I mean that just doesn’t happen.  Well, it could happen but you would have people returning your book immediately.  They wouldn’t buy it, though.  Books are cool like that.  You can read every book in the world without ever buying one.  I mean, you see a book in a book store and pick it up and read it.  You don’t have to pay.  They could have security or time limits on books ya know.  That might cause a surge in the buying of books.  But, that doesn’t seem to be a problem.  I think the book industry does alright.

So, maybe this will turn into a music blog.  Who knows.  I’m not going to lie and say I’m going to update this thing a lot.  Look at the last time I posted.  JUNE.  The last time I posted something was in June.  Then, well now this one is from December.  6 months apart from each other (math holla).  But, I will try.  I want to try.  Bare with me all of the 0 people who read this.  I don’t even read this.  I type this with my eyes closed as I eat a sandwich.  I have no idea what any of this says.

Running

I enjoy running quite a bit.  It is very therapeutic for me.  Also, it’s healthy.  That’s an added bonus for sure.  Sadly, though, as with most parts of the body, things start to deteriorate and not be able to handle the wear and tear of every day activities.  My knees.  They are still good but I can already tell that one day it’s going to happen and my knees will explode out of my legs like rockets and kill an innocent bystander.  So, now I run on an elliptical machine or something.

But, with my love of running comes a question.  Where did running come from?  Who was the first person to decide that they need to run instead of trying to walk away from things?  It’s such a simple idea really.  But, how many people had to die before someone said, “That’s it!  I’m not taking this anymore!  We obviously can’t walk away from these animals, they keep catching up with us and tearing off our heads!”  So, is that how it was invented?  Some revolutionary man or woman (more than likely a man) stood up and said, “No more!” and figured out they would just walk more quickly (later known as running)?  Or, was it something that was programmed into our bodies from the beginning and it was just natural?  I hope it’s not the latter because that’s not as interesting.

Also with that comes something I think should be kept in our heads at all times.  If you’re running from something, you better make sure you’re running faster than whatever it is that is chasing you.  Because, if not.  You will be caught.

Welcome

Well, hello world.  Or, tiny group of individuals who will ever read this.  I am starting this little blog to take the little and big thoughts that are inside my head and let them escape.  I could just write them down but typing is faster.  I mean….yeah.  Plus, hand cramps no more.  I’d like to be able to say what will be discussed in this blog but I can’t do that.  Mainly because I don’t know.  I can say for certain that there will be music talked about and possibly shared, maybe talk about religion and my thoughts, but I can safely say that quite a bit of this blog might be about random thoughts.  I am a random person so my thoughts tend to follow that.  Anyway, if you so choose to read my thoughts then I hope you can take something away from it.